Review: Shades of Gray

Reviewed by Jen

This book put me through the emotional wringer. It was provocative; it was gut-wrenching; and it was damn good.

The story follows FBI agent Miller Sutton as he forces drug-runner Danny Butler to turn state’s evidence against his boss Roberto Hinestroza. Danny doesn’t want to do it, but it’s that or he gets sent back to prison and labeled a rat… virtually a death sentence.

Miller is responsible for Danny’s protective custody and as they spend time together in close quarters, the attraction is undeniable. Danny is gay, but Miller has never allowed himself to explore feelings for another man. There is something about Danny, though, that breaks through Miller’s walls. It’s hard to describe the evolution of their relationship in a way that gives it its due. It’s definitely sexy, but there is real depth beneath it. Danny is so broken by the life he’s led, but he covers it with a facade of strength. And yet, while his self-worth is undeniably fragile, there is a beacon of light in him that calls to Miller as no one ever has.

Miller is wrestling with his own demons. He has lived his life with such rigidity, pushing down his own feelings and desires so deep, even he can’t see them. As these two begin to fall for one another, each man is forced to look deep within himself and face hard truths. But at the same time, their hidden relationship makes both men happier than they have ever been.

When it was over, Miller slid out slowly, collapsing onto Danny’s body.
“Why,” he panted into Danny’s neck, “why is it so goddamn good?”

He was surprised at how full his voice sounded, so close to overflowing its steady banks.
Danny stroked his hair, his lips warm against Miller’s cheek.

“Because it’s us, Miller,” he whispered. “Because it’s us.”

I thought the whole book was going to be about their time in the safehouse, but there is so much more beyond that. There are some great flashbacks peppered in, which give readers alot of insight and backstory. And there are major developments after the guys leave the safehouse too. Without giving it all away, I can tell you that Danny makes a huge sacrifice… and so does Miller.

Sometimes I felt crushed under the weight of their feelings for each other, their own self-loathing, and the confluence of horrible circumstances they have to face. But in their moments of happiness and acceptance, it was like a warm blanket. There was just so much happening, my emotions ran the gamut. The sex is hot, don’t get me wrong, but this book is about so much more than that. It’s about love; it’s about self-discovery; and it’s about redemption. Very good. 4 1/2 stars.

*ARC Provided by NetGalley

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Shades of Gray
by Brooke McKinley
Release Date: October 19, 2009
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press

Comments

  1. Really enjoyed this one too – great mix of angst and suspense and hot sex 😉

  2. Great review, Jen. This one got to me too. Real emotional roller coaster.

  3. You two are the reason I read this book!

  4. I put this one on my TBR list already thanks to Christi with Smitten With Reading’s review. She loved it so much that she had received a free eBook copy of it and she ended up buying her own physical copy of the book. I’m glad that you did enjoy it and that just shows that I need to check it out!

  5. I’m glad you’re giving it a try. It was very, very good.

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